Christmas is supposed to be a time of peace and calm. But you know how it goes—everything around you seems perfect, slow, serene, yet inside, you’re running a marathon of thoughts that just won’t stop. That’s exactly how I felt. The main question in my head? “How long can I keep this up?”
Fortunately, they say that when you don’t know where to start, just begin where you are. But that assumes you can actually stop first. For the past few years, I’ve been stuck in permanent multitasking mode: I’m a marketing professional in IT, trying to be an “artist,” and desperately clinging to my past as a tattoo artist. But instead of feeling fulfilled, it’s slowly draining me. I enjoy my work, but it exhausts me. Drawing calms me, but I never have the time to finish anything. And tattooing? I’m afraid it’s just a reminder of what used to be.
I started realizing all of this over Christmas, which is why, even before New Year’s Eve, I made a single resolution:
I want to be okay. But where do I start?
The answer might be simpler than I expected: I’ll start small, with baby steps. I want to create micro habits that help me rest without feeling like I’m slacking off. Maybe I’ll set boundaries for my working hours, even if I’m tempted to stay at my computer longer. Or I’ll find a few minutes for journaling to put the chaos in my head onto paper. It’s not a revolution. But maybe that’s exactly the path to feeling better without having to overturn my entire life.
https://youtu.be/vUaLaYk1q5s
We’ll see how it goes… And if anyone wants to join in, let me know how you’re starting. 😊
When Multitasking Drains You and Peace Feels Out of Reach
Christmas is supposed to be a time of peace and calm. But you know how it goes—everything around you seems perfect, slow, serene, yet inside, you’re running a marathon of thoughts that just won’t stop. That’s exactly how I felt. The main question in my head? “How long can I keep this up?”
Fortunately, they say that when you don’t know where to start, just begin where you are. But that assumes you can actually stop first. For the past few years, I’ve been stuck in permanent multitasking mode: I’m a marketing professional in IT, trying to be an “artist,” and desperately clinging to my past as a tattoo artist. But instead of feeling fulfilled, it’s slowly draining me. I enjoy my work, but it exhausts me. Drawing calms me, but I never have the time to finish anything. And tattooing? I’m afraid it’s just a reminder of what used to be.
I started realizing all of this over Christmas, which is why, even before New Year’s Eve, I made a single resolution:
I want to be okay. But where do I start?
The answer might be simpler than I expected: I’ll start small, with baby steps. I want to create micro habits that help me rest without feeling like I’m slacking off. Maybe I’ll set boundaries for my working hours, even if I’m tempted to stay at my computer longer. Or I’ll find a few minutes for journaling to put the chaos in my head onto paper. It’s not a revolution. But maybe that’s exactly the path to feeling better without having to overturn my entire life.
We’ll see how it goes… And if anyone wants to join in, let me know how you’re starting. 😊
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